the life you have is completely yours

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“But your task is to become something much more unique and surprising than anyone your parents could ever imagine you to be. You have to know that the life you have is completely yours.”  — THE GIRL WHO WAS SATURDAY NIGHT

I like to think that many years ago on a cold, snowy day as my dad watched T.V. and my mum crocheted a blanket, I sat on the floor with my sister and picked up a book. As I flipped through the pages and made up my own stories, both of my parents smiled and said “Yep, she’s going to be a great writer some day — or at very least, an avid reader”. That didn’t happen and I’m unsure if my parents ever stood over my crib and took a guess at who or what I was going to become.

I think the hardest part of growing up and becoming an adult isn’t getting my career started or getting out of the pizza place, it’s being Me. It’s forgetting about all of those outside factors, the opinions of others, the welcome and unwelcome advice, the negative comments or generalizations and simply being myself. I’m indecisive and I struggle with making decisions because I let so many other outside factors effect them. I’m always concerned about how any decision effects everyone else around me, I wonder and wonder if I can do certain things, and I second guess myself a lot. Maybe that’s why I am where I am right now.

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This life is completely and totally mine and I have to start acting like it. I’m going to start doing what I want to do, I am going to speak up and air my thoughts.

I am not going to let my fear stop me, I’m not going remain in unhappy atmospheres surrounded by unhappy people.

I’m going to take risks and make mistakes, but they’re mine.

And it’s okay because nothing is permanent, not even pain.

 

Talk soon,

Vanessa Xo

 

I Keep My Dreams in Jars

Just for Fun, Lifestyle/Personal

A few weeks ago I started my very own Dream/Wish/Hope Jars..

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…It’s like having a Bucket List written in little pieces of paper that you can see every time you sit down at your desk. Whenever I think to myself I want to do this or it would be so cool to do that, I write it down add the date and put it in a jar.

I decided that I would take a look at them once a month to see if I did anything that I said I would or if I’m taking the necessary steps to make my dreams come true.

One day I hope to make a scrapbook or a collage of all these strips of paper and pictures to prove that I’ve done them all.

A collage of dreams come true…sounds wonderful doesn’t it? 🙂


Love Always
Vanessa Xo