Funk-Filled Black Friday

Lifestyle/Personal, Uncategorized

What a god-awful depressing Black Friday it is – thank goodness I’m working all day. Distraction is good and procrastinating my thoughts is amazing sometimes. I guess it’s safe to say that I’m in a little bit of a funk; job-funk, writing-funk, life-funk, etc. I feel like I pulled an Alice – I drank something I shouldn’t have, shrunk to the size of a cell phone, but I fell into a jar filled with molasses (I don’t know why being in a funk has always been synonymous with being stuck in a jar of molasses for me, but such is life).

So now I’m tiny, helpless, and surrounded by darkness.

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I could use some glitter and colour in my life and maybe something to help pull me out of this jar.

Don’t worry, I’ll clean myself off – I just need a helping hand.

Love Always
Vanessa Xo

The most important promises are the ones you make to yourself

Just for Fun, Lifestyle/Personal

I’ve made promises to people and kept them; I’ve also made promises to people and not kept them. I’ve pinky-promised, pinky-swore, and crossed my heart and hoped to die, stuck a needle in my eye (didn’t realize how disturbing that ‘poem’ is until now).

The most important promises I’ve ever made (and kept) have been to myself. I write lists upon lists of promises to myself, of things do, of places to go, of new things to try, of books to read, and of novels to write. I’ve also made promises inside my head (but I ain’t crazayyy) of the woman I want to be, the person I want to become.

Have I kept those promises?

My heart says that I haven’t, not always, and not to the best of my ability. My head says I’m still young and there is plenty of time to change or to stay the same. They both agree that I can become the person I’ve always aspired to be, I just need to put in a little more elbow-grease.

My head and my heart are screaming,

 “VANESSA, DON’T MAKE PROMISES YOU DON’T INTEND TO KEEP!” 

Love Always
Vanessa Xo

Sometimes I'm a Floater

Lifestyle/Personal

Yes, I feel like that kind of a floater today!
From: http://coppermillionaire.wordpress.com/

Sometimes I let myself float through life and not think about anything. I simply do what I have to do in that moment, in that day. In fact I normally find something to take up so much of my time that I don’t have to think about what’s going on in my head, or in my heart. My sister’s wedding was great for that. I was able to put off a lot of decisions and focus all of my time and energy on making her day a special one (including her shower and stagette).

So, now that she is married and out of the house – what’s a girl to do but sit back and start worrying about her own life. Yikes. Still in school, still writing (and not getting far), still part-timing at the pizza place – practically standing still or running in circles, I can’t tell anymore.

Gawd, could I BE anymore EMO today?!?

Maybe I should just sit still for a while. Be content in this stillness.

Maybe then I will be able to pinpoint my goals and take the right path to get there.

Maybe I’ll let the stillness help me.

Love Always
Vanessa Xo

Sometimes I’m a Floater

Lifestyle/Personal

Yes, I feel like that kind of a floater today!
From: http://coppermillionaire.wordpress.com/

Sometimes I let myself float through life and not think about anything. I simply do what I have to do in that moment, in that day. In fact I normally find something to take up so much of my time that I don’t have to think about what’s going on in my head, or in my heart. My sister’s wedding was great for that. I was able to put off a lot of decisions and focus all of my time and energy on making her day a special one (including her shower and stagette).

So, now that she is married and out of the house – what’s a girl to do but sit back and start worrying about her own life. Yikes. Still in school, still writing (and not getting far), still part-timing at the pizza place – practically standing still or running in circles, I can’t tell anymore.

Gawd, could I BE anymore EMO today?!?

Maybe I should just sit still for a while. Be content in this stillness.

Maybe then I will be able to pinpoint my goals and take the right path to get there.

Maybe I’ll let the stillness help me.

Love Always
Vanessa Xo