Quite honestly, 2015 has been the most difficult and hectic year of my life. Change came at me from every direction simultaneously slapping me in the face and rubbing my back. Below are my most “liked” Instagram moments of the year and although I wrote about many more of them in my diary, I can understand why these were most-liked. These nine moments captured by various filters represent the biggest changes I faced, both happy and sad.
The day we got engaged; a surprise to say the least
My birthday tattoo; a reminder to keep writing, fighting, and trying
Outfit from my birthday weekend in the city; the most confident I’ve felt in a while
The birth of my niece; my heart grew 6 sizes that day
My last day working at Caruso Gourmet Pizza; the start of a new office job
Our seven-year anniversary; and several wishes for the future
Christmas Eve with my siblings; we like each other sometimes
Walking to the hospital food court with my niece; where most of my October was spent
The day I found my wedding dress; I felt like a Princess
In 2014 I wished for 2015 to be a year of clarity and man did I get what I asked for. It became painstakingly clear that nothing is more important than family. That life is fragile and nothing is permanent, so to what makes you happy is the only way to make a life worth living. It became clear that plans are wonderful but flexibility is the key to sanity.
Because of this I am not making resolutions for 2016 – I don’t know what the year will bring but I am hoping for happiness, health, and adventure.
As I think back on 2014 I realize that I spent most of it in a hibernating kind of contemplation. I thought instead of doing. I questioned instead of acting. I was afraid and didn’t take enough risks.
My Year in Review
I changed my blog multiple times and am currently looking at new themes for the new year
I thought about giving up blogging altogether
I quit my job at the pizza place and gave a half-ass attempt to freelancing, then wound up serving pizza again
I went on multiple interviews and learned a lot from them
I applied to a million jobs (am still applying on a daily basis, HELP)
I got a part-time job at Oxford Learning Centre
I had many downtown adventures and attended a few amazing events
I took a short fiction writing class at Ryerson and adored it
I started writing short stories and began submitting them to literary magazines (I even entered CBC’s Short Story Contest)
I wrote a novella based loosely on my Uncle’s life for NaNoWriMo
I started writing for Passion8 Mag, which has helped harness my creativity
I started cooking
I TURNED 25
I met and spoke with inspiring women thanks to Ten Thousand Coffees
I read 61 books and loved most of them
I spent loads of time with my family, my niece, my in-laws, and my friends — they’ve been my happiness this year
My boyfriend and I have taken our relationship to the next level (more on that another time)
I thought a lot about privacy and social media and how it tends to make you lose sense of yourself
I decided to delete my Facebook account since I only use it to creep other people
The small steps I took in 2014 were on a winding road that led me back to the beginning more than once. It was the year of ONE-STEP-FORWARD-TWO-STEPS-BACK and I’m completely dizzy from losing my footing so many times. Some days I wasn’t quite sure who I was, nor where I was headed. If I wish for anything in 2015 it would have to be clarity. I just want to know what I’m supposed to be doing. I want to feel more like myself. I want to make something of myself!
Resolutions for 2015
BE PRESENT (Keep my phone in my purse.)
WRITE MORE POETRY AND SHORT STORIES (Who cares if no one reads them.)
FOCUS ON STARTING MY CAREER (Even if it what I’m doing isn’t part of the original plan.)
GET MY PRIVACY BACK (Social media is convenient, but privacy is unparalleled. I will share what I want, not what I think I have to.)
“For last year’s words belong to last year’s language
And next year’s words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.”
― T.S. Eliot