On Sunday I went to the Art Gallery of Ontario with Casie Stewart (blogger, mentor, influencer). It felt great to be downtown on my own again but I still felt a littler nervous meeting up with Casie! Thankfully we started off the morning with a mimosa – where I shook it out and relaxed. Seriously, I had to shake out my nerves. I’m such a tense and anxious person, I need to let loose and STOP WORRYING. THIS IS ME, AND I’M AWESOME, LIKE IT OR LEAVE IT. In that state-of-mind I walked around from room to room of the art gallery with Casie by my side. We talked about a lot of things, she showed me some of her favourite artwork, and she told me a few of her stories.
Mostly we talked about this:
Photo from Casie Stewart
About me getting out of my comfort zone and trying new things. About me getting out of my current work situation and finding something that will give me the skills I need to succeed in the field I want to get into (publishing). Casie gave me loads of excellent advice but what hit me hardest was when she politely called me out on my crap. I haven’t been looking for jobs in the right places because I’m comfortable where I am and I am scared of change. BOOM! I said it. Now I need to change it. Easy-peasy.
Another thing that I really need to work on is discovering what I LOVE. I walked through the room filled with self-portraits (the original selfie) and wondered what my self-portrait would look like and how I really see myself. I wondered a lot about what I love, what inspires me, and I realized that I don’t know. But I am going to find out.
I’ve got a brand new notebook and I’m making the right lists, looking for the right jobs, and exploring the city as often as I can.
Next I’d like to check out the aquarium and head to The R.O.M, then maybe I’ll explore the local art gallery (McMichael).
Tuesday was my first official mentor session with Casie Stewart thanks to the contest I won from HTC Canada. I walked into the Royal York Fairmont Hotel and wandered aimlessly, taken aback by the sheer beauty of the place. I had arrived at said destination a little early and figured that the best use of my time would be to people-watch. Classy and elegant women sat on sofas with their ankles crossed, a piano player sang her heart out somewhere in the distance, an angry man with grey hair shuffled passed me with his head shaking and mumbling an audible FUCK under his breath, while a young woman stood silently with her suitcases leaning against her — making me want to travel desperately.
As I looked around and stared up at the beautiful boxy ceilings, and shamelessly took a selfie, Casie popped out of nowhere with a big hug and a warm smile. My nerves melted away as we made our way to Library Bar, ordered cocktails and an appetizer to split. We immediately jumped into conversation, like old friends, and admittedly it was one of the best conversations I’ve had in a long time. As the dark-lit room buzzed with the busyness of businessmen I let it all fade away and opened my mind to everything Casie was saying.
As part of the HTC One contest, I won a few hours with Casie Stewart so she can get me on the proper path to becoming an Influencer with my blog. But before we got into that Casie wanted to know about me and what I want. When I couldn’t come up with an answer she asked me to visualize where I want to be, what I want to wear to work, what kind of company I want to work for, where I want to live, and not just visualize it but FEEL it. That will be my first step to AWESOMENESS.
Next Casie told me about herself, she told me stories that left me feeling inspired and motivated. She gave me tonnes of advice and really believes in me which left me on a cloud the rest of the evening. She told me to stop coasting, to stop being afraid, and to do things — the more you do, the more inspired you’ll be to write. She told me to make a change and THAT is exactly what I plan on doing. First I must figure out what I want and then make a plan (and work my ass off to get it).
I can’t wait to meet up with Casie again to show her what I’ve been working on.
Her positivity and caring nature made me feel confident and ready to take on the world.
Looks like she’s pulling me out of my rut!
“The only way out is deeper in. It’s what you don’t yet know that can save you.”
― Irini Spanidou, Before
Whatever it is that you’re going through, good or bad, pour your whole being into it. Eventually you will get out of the rut, you’ll move onto something better, or you’ll realize that where you are is exactly where you’re supposed to be. I don’t know why that quote pricked my heart, why it made me feel so… hopeful but I hope it does the same for you. I hope it helps you get through your week and pushes you to keep moving forward. Sometimes I feel like with everything I’m doing, I’m getting no results. Did you know that I’ve thought about giving up this whole “blogging” thing? I’ve thought about giving up on a job in publishing (magazine or book) and settling for whatever company will take a look at my resume. But then I realize (thanks to the thoughtful advice of my parents) that you have to keep going if you want something to happen — the only way out (or onto something better) is deeper in. Maybe your path with change, maybe your dreams will alter, but you’ll achieve them (it’s what will save you).
If I had given up I would’ve never entered the HTC One contest, nor would I have won the opportunity to WRITE a post on one of my favourite blogs. But today, that happened. My post is up on THIS IS MY LIFE and I couldn’t be happier, it’s a blogging dream come true and I’m optimistic that slowly but surely — if I keep working hard, good things will come.
In April I entered Casie Stewart’s HTC One Influencer contest and just this week I received an email letting me know that I WON! So what exactly did I win? Well, shortly I’ll be putting away my iPhone5 and trying out my first Android, the HTC ONE, which you know is a pretty big deal for this iPhone-lover. With this new phone I’ll be documenting my life, as well as the other part of my prize — a social and blog mentorship with the one and only Casie Stewart (THIS IS MY LIFE). I’m so excited for that part of the contest, apparently I get to guest post on her blog too! I cannot wait to meet up with Casie (notebook, pen, and laptop in hand) and learn how to take my blog to the next level.
Thank you to Casie, HTC, and Say Media for this amazing opportunity, I am so excited to be the next HTC One Influencer!