Birds Fly

Lifestyle/Personal

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A great friend sent me that quote last night after I regailed her with my most recent insecurities and fears. I told her how my anxiety has been giving me loads of nausea and mental blocks. How it’s been poking away at my confidence and turning it to some variation of mushy fear. After I read that quote and she gave me the ever so subtle reminder that MISTAKES ARE OKAY, ALL THAT MATTERS IS THAT YOU LEARN AND TRY, I felt my confidence boost.

As I watch the birds fly strong and proud in their V formation, I’ll remember that I is smart, I is strong, I can do anything.

Sending sunshine and confidence to you on this rainy morning!

Love Always,
Vanessa Xo

*Posted from my Moto X

 

weekend living/ how others see you…

Bursting the Bubble, Just for Fun, Lifestyle/Personal, Products and Brands

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The way others see you can sometimes be the complete and total opposite of how you see yourself.

“I was listening to Z1035 and their D.J. reminded me so much of you! Especially the way she tells stories: she’s sarcastic, kind of vulgar, and doesn’t give a crap about what anyone thinks. I swear I picture tour face when she’s talking. Maybe you should think about a career change.” — Cousin Tania I took all of that as a compliment and assumed that she meant it as such. I come off as smart, funny, sarcastic, bitchy, and confident?don’t care what other people think about me? That is certainly not how it feels when I’m inside my own head — there’s nothing but doubts and need to succeed and a desperate attempt to be accepted and approved by all. The fact that someone out there thinks of me as confident is reason enough for me believe that I really don’t give a crap about what people think of me. IMG_0405 IMG_0410 IMG_0427 I’ve been marinating over this since last Thursday, when I saw my cousin Tania, and have taken every opportunity to walk with my head up high, to not talk myself down, and to let loose and not care about the opinions or judgements of others. My bestie and cousin had their engagement party on Saturday and I used it to put that decision to the test. I wore my new (and favourite) party dress from Forever21, the reddest shoes I could find, talked up a storm, smiled, laughed, left my phone inside, and for the first time in a long time, I felt happy and content in my own skin, and with my life decisions.

Remember: You are younger today than you ever will be again. Make the most of it! 

Talk soon,

Vanessa Xo

I Guess I kinda lack Confidence…

Just for Fun, Lifestyle/Personal

I lack in the right kind of confidence – the confidence that allows you to try new things, the confidence that is fueled by passion for your work. I’m always scared to say or do or write the wrong thing. I never feel like my writing is good enough to share (which I’m still surprised that I actually BLOG as often as I do). I’m terrified to start a “real” job/career – what if I’m not good at it?

My confidence is lacking so much that I often compare my life to someone else’s; why do they get to have an adventure and I don’t? Why are they traveling and I’m not? Why do they have a kick-ass job and I don’t? I am not at all proud of thinking this way btw! It hurts and it creates this heartburn feeling from the bottom of my stomach to the middle of my throat! And is it really necessary to make myself feel this way? No.

The reason why I’m not living anyone else’s life is because I am living my own. I need to stop thinking and start doing. I need to take the chances, the risks, and whatever opportunities I am given in order to be the best me I can be. I need to figure out where I want to be and what I want to do. I don’t want to settle. I deserve to work hard and have an adventure or two along the way.

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“You can think your heart out but you need to start DOING!”

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 Find confidence Be confident today and cheers to the freakin’ weekend! 

Love Always
Vanessa Xo