Shh shh shh… it's the winds of change

Categories, Just for Fun, Toronto Adventures

 

Reading Not A Model’s latest blog post about change has really got me thinking about how I deal with change. Let me start by saying I’ve had the same job since I was sixteen, I didn’t live on residence during university, and the biggest changes in my life are simply a result of someone else’s decision (i.e. my sister getting married and moving out).

Not A Model’s biggest fear in change is the before; just the hint of the thought of change nauseates me. Changing my blog’s appearance or its content, changing my style or the frames of my glasses, changing the paint that covers my bedroom walls, or the colour of polish shining on my nails – I don’t even think twice. Thinking about applying for a job in a faraway city, or renting a place downtown and living on my own, or even taking a solo trip to New York leaves me breathless. No really, I am hyperventilating as I write this. So it would seem that only completely life-altering changes scare me… at least I’ve narrowed it down? 

And now it’s written, my greatest fear is forever on the Internet for you to see.

I can’t let it haunt me – I need to make a change.

Love Always
Vanessa Xo

Shh shh shh… it’s the winds of change

Categories, Just for Fun, Toronto Adventures

 

Reading Not A Model’s latest blog post about change has really got me thinking about how I deal with change. Let me start by saying I’ve had the same job since I was sixteen, I didn’t live on residence during university, and the biggest changes in my life are simply a result of someone else’s decision (i.e. my sister getting married and moving out).

Not A Model’s biggest fear in change is the before; just the hint of the thought of change nauseates me. Changing my blog’s appearance or its content, changing my style or the frames of my glasses, changing the paint that covers my bedroom walls, or the colour of polish shining on my nails – I don’t even think twice. Thinking about applying for a job in a faraway city, or renting a place downtown and living on my own, or even taking a solo trip to New York leaves me breathless. No really, I am hyperventilating as I write this. So it would seem that only completely life-altering changes scare me… at least I’ve narrowed it down? 

And now it’s written, my greatest fear is forever on the Internet for you to see.

I can’t let it haunt me – I need to make a change.

Love Always
Vanessa Xo

Papa Vince to the Rescue!

Family Time, Lifestyle/Personal

Well, if yesterday I was Debbie Downer – today you can call me Ursula Upper (I Googled what the antonym for Debbie Downer is and that is what I got). Funny how your mood can change so dramatically from day-to-day. I think my mood change is thanks to a comment on my Sometimes I’m a Floater post, as well as a conversation I just had with my Dad.

Thanks Lisa for your wonderful comment 🙂

Whenever I get sulky or depressed with where my life is headed, my Dad always tells me to relax. He tells me that I am working as hard as I can right now and I am doing my best in my current situation. He tells me not to rush things, he tells me not to compare my life to anyone else’s. He tells me to go to work, finish school, and the good things will follow. He reminds me that I am not “behind” anyone because everyone has a different life, a different path. He tells me that my time will come. He tells me that if I work hard and I trek through the next little while, my time will come.

 

Thanks for the chat this morning, Dad!

Happy almost Friday!

Love Always
Vanessa Xo

Sometimes I’m a Floater

Lifestyle/Personal

Yes, I feel like that kind of a floater today!
From: http://coppermillionaire.wordpress.com/

Sometimes I let myself float through life and not think about anything. I simply do what I have to do in that moment, in that day. In fact I normally find something to take up so much of my time that I don’t have to think about what’s going on in my head, or in my heart. My sister’s wedding was great for that. I was able to put off a lot of decisions and focus all of my time and energy on making her day a special one (including her shower and stagette).

So, now that she is married and out of the house – what’s a girl to do but sit back and start worrying about her own life. Yikes. Still in school, still writing (and not getting far), still part-timing at the pizza place – practically standing still or running in circles, I can’t tell anymore.

Gawd, could I BE anymore EMO today?!?

Maybe I should just sit still for a while. Be content in this stillness.

Maybe then I will be able to pinpoint my goals and take the right path to get there.

Maybe I’ll let the stillness help me.

Love Always
Vanessa Xo

Sometimes I'm a Floater

Lifestyle/Personal

Yes, I feel like that kind of a floater today!
From: http://coppermillionaire.wordpress.com/

Sometimes I let myself float through life and not think about anything. I simply do what I have to do in that moment, in that day. In fact I normally find something to take up so much of my time that I don’t have to think about what’s going on in my head, or in my heart. My sister’s wedding was great for that. I was able to put off a lot of decisions and focus all of my time and energy on making her day a special one (including her shower and stagette).

So, now that she is married and out of the house – what’s a girl to do but sit back and start worrying about her own life. Yikes. Still in school, still writing (and not getting far), still part-timing at the pizza place – practically standing still or running in circles, I can’t tell anymore.

Gawd, could I BE anymore EMO today?!?

Maybe I should just sit still for a while. Be content in this stillness.

Maybe then I will be able to pinpoint my goals and take the right path to get there.

Maybe I’ll let the stillness help me.

Love Always
Vanessa Xo

Reunited but it’s not the Same

Family Time, Just for Fun, Lifestyle/Personal

While on vacation for a week, we left our puppy with Club Paws. It’s a boarding house that finds the perfect match for your puppy. Waffles stayed with an older couple for an entire week and he finally came home yesterday.

Although Club Paws took great care of him and Waffles had a wonderful time with the couple, I was a little jealous when I heard that he loved cuddling with his parents-for-the-week. He’s my puppy – don’t cuddle. I think my entire family was scared that when he came home he wouldn’t recognize us or that he wouldn’t want to come home.

Cheryl dropped Waffles off at home early in the morning yesterday and at first he was extremely excited but then he just walked off by himself and ignored all of us.

Cheryl said that it is normal for your dog to snub you a bit for the first few days, considering that we literally abandoned him for a week I understand how he feels. I cannot wait until he’s back to normal though. He was so mopey last night and refused to give me kisses!

I definitely recommend Club Paws if you find yourself in a situation where you need your dog to have a little vacation – he was treated well, the couple fell in love with him, he was treated the same way we treat him at home. However, I don’t think I’ll be able to leave him with someone else again – with my sister gone this house already feels too empty for my liking!

Hope you have a Happy Tuesday and remember to give your pup a kiss!

Love Always
Vanessa Xo

Reunited but it's not the Same

Family Time, Just for Fun, Lifestyle/Personal

While on vacation for a week, we left our puppy with Club Paws. It’s a boarding house that finds the perfect match for your puppy. Waffles stayed with an older couple for an entire week and he finally came home yesterday.

Although Club Paws took great care of him and Waffles had a wonderful time with the couple, I was a little jealous when I heard that he loved cuddling with his parents-for-the-week. He’s my puppy – don’t cuddle. I think my entire family was scared that when he came home he wouldn’t recognize us or that he wouldn’t want to come home.

Cheryl dropped Waffles off at home early in the morning yesterday and at first he was extremely excited but then he just walked off by himself and ignored all of us.

Cheryl said that it is normal for your dog to snub you a bit for the first few days, considering that we literally abandoned him for a week I understand how he feels. I cannot wait until he’s back to normal though. He was so mopey last night and refused to give me kisses!

I definitely recommend Club Paws if you find yourself in a situation where you need your dog to have a little vacation – he was treated well, the couple fell in love with him, he was treated the same way we treat him at home. However, I don’t think I’ll be able to leave him with someone else again – with my sister gone this house already feels too empty for my liking!

Hope you have a Happy Tuesday and remember to give your pup a kiss!

Love Always
Vanessa Xo