The title of this post was a question posed by my mom when we got to Upper Canada Mall today. To which my sister and I replied in unison “where the watermelons grow” followed by laughter and a enthusiastic high-five. Here’s where that came from – start at the 30 second mark.
Since that would have been a whole lot funnier if you were there, I’ll continue with this post and pretend as if that didn’t happen…
… So today I went to the mall with Mom, Sister, and Avoa. We went to Upper Canada Mall in Newmarket and with the wonderful weather we’re having today, I just had to document it.
See how pretty? I forget sometimes how much I love the suburbs and living “way-up-north”. On my way home from the mall it even crossed my mind that I would love to live in a small town, up north somewhere. Lots of land, peace and quiet. A big backyard to have barbecues with the familia. If you know me, you’re probably thinking:
“What the f***? Since WHEN do you NOT want to live downtown?”
The answer: I have no idea. Maybe I’m just growing up, or maybe I’m changing, or maybe it’s a combination of both.
I realized today that I got the idea of how I wanted to live my life and where I want to live by watching a whole-lotta chick-flicks. It’s easy to picture yourself living downtown Manhattan, in a chic modern apartment, with a steady income from writing when you watch Sex and the City. But let’s face it, my life isn’t a television show and to base your dreams and beliefs on what you see on T.V is just plain silly.
Don’t get me wrong here, I AM a writer. I will always write and it is the one career path I will follow, but maybe I don’t need to be the next Carrie Bradshaw. Maybe I just need to work on being the best Vanessa Grillone, I’m the only one of my kind after all. Maybe I just need to figure out what I want and what I believe in instead of following the dreams of others, or the preconceived notions of what I think I should be doing.
This whole growing up thing is tough and each day I am learning something new about myself. Each day I’m figuring out what I want to be and where I want to go. Each day I find myself thinking about the future. Each day I try to figure out exactly what I want.
All I know for sure is that I love to write and if I can bring in the bacon by doing that –
I’ll be happy.
Everything else will follow suit.